Monday, July 16, 2007
Long time no blogg
thats all I feel like talking about now... so until next time...
LOVE PEACE AND HAIRGREASE!!! =)
Friday, April 27, 2007
I gotta say it was a good day...
...And if I don't get that job I still got the Shoreline Amphitheatre orientation on May 5.
So I am feelinig quite BETTER about life right now
I just wanted to give some good news for now... I will be in touch later when I get a chance =)
Thursday, April 26, 2007
in out and ahead...
I think the last time I checked in with you all, I was just about done with my schooling for the time being so I could get the rest of my life together and if you read some of my previous bloggs you know my situation. Basically I need to get off of my ass and get into gear with my life.
As I said earlier, I am excited because within the last two weeks have been very productive for me. I got a job at the Shoreline Amphitheater the orientation is May 5
and as for more good info... I got a job interview tomorrow at Macy's And being that I know someone that works there, I found out that it is going to be a group interview. So now I kinda know what to expect...
well, I am going to sign out for now, because there are people waiting to use the computer, so I am going to be nice... FOR NOW... HAHAHAHA!!! =)
Monday, April 9, 2007
I dont know what I am saying...
because it is really easy for me to become comfortable with the lifestyle of homelessness. which for me is not a problem, I have an understanding of what this situation entails. and I am severely getting sick of the way that this lifestyle makes my heart really cold, and anyone who knows me... knows that this I am not anywhere near cold-hearted but with my current living situation, in a homeless shelter.
and its not like I am totally helpless, I mean I do have the capacity to survive and have a decent group of close associates that I might be actually close enough to be calling them true friends, but at the same time I fear, from past experiences, that the more I tend to give, not only do they decide to take more but me being the people pleaser that I am, I just keep on giving...
and that is only because that is how I was raised, tho share and share alike and the "GOLDEN RULE", and as I go on in here, I am learning that not everyone treats you how you treat them, and I know that is a part of life, I just wish more people (in general) would just treat people nicer.
TATA 4 NOW... SMOKE BREAK!!!! (I will explain later)
Friday, March 16, 2007
CHECKIN IN...
So.... It has been a while since you(my fans) have heard from me and I figured that since I have a little bit of time, that I might check in with you all...
Let me see, last time I believe I was on here I had just recently become a resident of a homeless shelter in San Jose...
UMMMMMMMMM... within these last few weeks, so much has gone on and there is only one way I can describe it.
Barnum and Bailey's got nothing on this show, I am daily involved in the greatest show on earth... from the excitement of what is gonna happen next, to the passion of life at its best. I am truly beginning to see that GOD has put my mother and I in this situation, not to the full extent but I am grateful GOD has put me where I must have needed to be at thip point of my life to bring us "back to the basics of life."
I have befriended a few good folks and there seems to be a sense of community there its like we are almost family. there are actually some people in this establishment that I would consider close enough to be family and the ability to feel this way is very interesting to me because I have some trust issues and it seems like when I am around certain folks, I am able to drop my walls a little bit.
well, I feel that I have spurted off a bit more than I can chew, so I am going to do my best to post here more often...
STAY TUNED :)
Sunday, February 25, 2007
GOD IS GOOD
as for some positive news, I had a job interview today and I also got ahold of one of my previous co-worker and he has told me that there is a few positions open at where he works and it is local to where we are going to be living and there are so many more opportunities in the area, which is a motivating factor to me.
Friday, February 23, 2007
It could be worse...
Like I mentioned previously I have been homeless in the past in a different county, and that was with my dad, and it was completely different.mainly because of the diference in defense mechanisms, my dad made sure I was alright as well and made sure we weere alright, as my mom is, but my dad is/was slightly more used to being homeless to where this is my moms first time being homeless and she is showing me that if I weren't here with her, I dont think she would keep her head on right.
I do feel slightly back into being homeless while realising that it is only temporary and we will only be here for about a month or so.and for me it isnt as bad as it could be. we could be without a.)a vehicle b.) money or c.) a roof over our head and plenty of resources to utilize.
Like I said "it COULD be a lot worse." So for now, this is Bryan "Bz" SIGNING OUT
I might be back later... But I will definitely be staying in contact with this as a journal for my sanity, and maybe even sometimes, I might be able to entertain you a lil bit.
PEACE GRITS and ALL THAT GOOD SHIT!!!!
Monday, February 19, 2007
TURN THE PAGE...
Good Habits Hebrews 6:1
So let us go on to grown-up teaching.
Let us not go back over the beginning lessons
we learned about Christ.
Hebrews 6:1
I like the story of the little boy who fell out
of bed. When his Mom asked him what happened,
he answered, "I don't know. I guess I stayed too close
to where I got in."
Easy to do the same with our faith. It's tempt-
ing just to stay where we got in and never move.
Pick a time in the not-too-distant past. A year
or two ago. Now ask yourself a few questions. How
does your prayer life today compare with then? How
about your giving? Have both the amount and the
joy increased? What about your church loyalty? Can
you tell you've grown? And bible study? Are you
learning to learn?...
Don't make the mistake of the little boy. Don't
stay too close to where you got in. It's risky resting
on the edge.
When God Whispers Your Name
If God is for us, who [can be] against us?
If God is for us, who [can be] against us? [Who
can be our foe, if God is on our side?]
Romans 8:31
Do you feel as though the world is against
you? Does it seem that no matter how
hard you try no one is pleased? Maybe you have con-
flict with a family member. Perhaps your boss finds
fault with your work.
Sooner or later you will experience some form
of rejection. Not everybody will like you. some may
even aggressively dislike you. No one enjoys being re-
jected, but you can learn to handle rejeciton and get
on with your life if you remember that jesus was
also rejected and despised. If you feel rejected, give
your hurt to God:
Lord, I can't please everyone all of the time. I
will concentrate on being a God pleaser and not a
man pleaser. The rest I leave in Your hands, Lord.
Grant me favor with You and with men, and con-
tinue transforming me into the image of Your Son.
Thank You, Lord.
Sunday, February 18, 2007
according to this quiz I just took... I AM AN OLD SOUL
Another badass quiz from eSPIN-the-Bottle... |
MY RESULT:Old Soul |
You’re a great person to know ‘cause you’re so wise and mature. Plus you’re probably good at shuffleboard. |
Saturday, February 17, 2007
Feelings, nothing more than FEELINGS...
this is how our land/slumlord has treated us. the funny thing is that he didn't even know who we were until we were in court and his attorney called our names and we responded. Ain't that some shit...
Friday, February 16, 2007
A Russian dramatist and writer once said...
- Anton Chekhov (1860-1904) Russian dramatist and writer
Whatever may be troubling you, shake it off!
Now Paul had gathered a bundle of sticks, and he
was laying them on the fire when a vier crawled out
because of the heat and fastened itself on his hand.
When the natives saw the little animal hanging from
his hand, they said to one another, Doubtless this
man is a murderer, for though he has been saved from
the sea, Justice [the goddess of avenging] has not
permitted that he should live. Then [Paul simply]
shook off the small creature into the fire and
suffered no evil effects.
Acts 28:3-5
When Paul was shipwrecked on the island
of Malta, a deadly snake that was driven
out by the heat of fire bit him. He simply shook
the creature off into the flames. You should follow
Paul's example and do the same in your own life.
Whatever may be troubling you, shake it off!
God has great things planned for you. the dreams of
the future leave no room for the snakebites of the
past.
Thursday, February 15, 2007
Aristotle noted...
my personality...
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3 Meat Pasta Sauce
3 lbs. Beef Chuck Roast (Boneless), trimmed and cut into 1” cubes
3 lbs. Pork Roast (Boneless), trimmed and cut into 1” cubes
1 lb. Italian Sausage Links, cut into 1” slices
3 tbs. Olive Oil
3 large onions, chopped
4 cloves garlic, minced
3 28-oz. cans tomato sauce
1 28-oz. can tomatoes with juice, crushed
3 6-oz. cans tomato paste
1/2 cup fresh parsley, minced
2 tbs. oregano
2 tbs. dried basil
3 tsp. garlic salt
2 tsp. salt
2 tsp. pepper.
Directions:
In a large soup kettle, brown all meats in olive oil, drain. Add onions and garlic, and cook until tender. Add all remaining ingredients and bring to a boil. Reduce heat to low, loosely cover and simmer for 3 hours, stirring occasionally. Serve over pasta or freeze for later use.
the anticipation is growing....
I think this FREE OZZFEST is going to be OFF THE HOOK... I was reading up on this matter and doing some research, when I stumbled across an interesting piece of information pertaining to the stipulations of this free event, which stated that you can have a free seat, but if you leave that seat, it goes up for grabs, and your friend(s) may not be able to save you that seat.
this could be good or it could be bad too...
well, I really hope it is a good thing, because I have been to OZZFEST in 2005, and it was an experience that i will never forget, which is why I think I would enjoy this event, especially since it is ABSOLUTELY FREE!!!
This is from 2005. My boy Ricky got the tickets for his birthday and brought me. I had too much fun :)
just simply answer the questions... PLEASE?!
2. age:
3. fave color:
4. are you a virgin?
5. are we friends?
6. Do you have a crush on me?
7. would you kiss me?
8. ....... with tongue?
9. would you enjoy it?
10. would you ever ask me out?
11. would you make a move on me in a movie theater?
12. would you take care of me when i'm sick?
13. do you want to tell me somthing that you couldn't before?
14. would you walk on the beach with me?
15. if you heard a rumor about me, would you defend me?
16. do you/have you talk shit about me?
17. do you think i'm a good person?
18. would you let me sleep with you?
19. do you think i'm hot?
20. if you could change anything about me , what would it be?
21. if we date, how long would you want to wait until we did it?
22. would you have sex with me?
23. would you come over for no reason, just to hang out?
24. will you post thist so i can fill it out for you?
25. what do you rate me outta 1- 10??
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
whatever don't kill us is going to make us stronger, right???
Well, we had court today and we are officially evicted just waiting for the sheriff to serve us the OFFICIAL 5-day notice and it is a good thing that we at least got a storage so that we dont lose all of our personal belongings. it is kind of a shock but I truly think it is for the best. The way I figure it, it can only get better from here, after all that my mom and I have been through within the last few months, as far as death in the family, loss of employment, while fighting an eviction...
like I may have mentioned before... whatever don't kill us is going to make us stronger, right??? and after these trials and tribulations I may end up very strong, because MAN does it feel like we have been through hell and high water... AND SURVIVED!!!
some words of wisdom...
- Joseph Joubert
Monday, February 12, 2007
so tired of being lonely...
I am so sick of being told the same thing over and over... JUST BE PATIENT, THE RIGHT ONE IS OUT THERE... WAITING FOR YOU LIKE YOU ARE FOR HER.
just so sick of waiting, and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting
I think you get the picture.
I don't get it, I am a good guy, not ugly, great personality... pretty much every thing I hear women wanting in a man... I guess when they say "size matters" is talking about the belly... I am a pretty big guy, and such a "GREAT FRIEND" but none of these females I go after are just not interested in being with a good man
I guess I wil just keep patiently waitin...
I DONT KNOW ANYMORE...
I dont know why it is but every time I sit at the computer, I get this overwhelming sensation of exhaustion, and I dont know why it only happens to me when I need to get work done. I can mess around all day surfing the internet, checking e-mail and staying stuck on myspace, but when I decide to start doing work, like I am supposed to, I just get really tired. I think it is because I am using the excuse of my life and all the shtuff that I have been going through within the last few months and I just don't feel like the Criminal Justice field is not my true passion? I mean it was fun my first quarter, learning criminal justice, but now it seems like I am not learning anything new. maybe that is why I am not as enthused about doing the work. its not my true passion, maybe???
I just wish that I had more of a motivator than just money, because if it is just about money, my true passion will never see the lights of day, and I will die alone and feeling unfulfilled...
I think I need to really explore my passion for life and where do I want to take it?
I DONT KNOW ANYMORE!!!
someone once said...
Friday, February 9, 2007
OZZFEST or FREEFEST???
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so I was listening to the radio today, I happened to hear some of the sweetest words to my ears, went a little somthin like... "OZZFEST WILL BE ABSOLUTELY FREE!!!" After I heard that, my heart dropped and I got so excited and had to tell my boys and one of them knew it already and tried to doubt Ozzy.
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Wednesday, February 7, 2007
good news, bad news... better news :)
this is what makes me believe that he is a complete slumlord. and to top it off, he didn;t even recognize us until his attorney called our names and we responded. so that leads me to believe that he doesn't know his ass from a hole in the ground.
but on the lighter side, it is going to give us more time to get our stuff into the storage unit, and find a place, so when we do finally go to court, we will already be up out of here, and on to our better place.
Sunday, February 4, 2007
interesting...
too bad for the Bears... not too interesting of a game. my team (49ers)weren't in it, so I wasn't too interested nor did I have any money on the game... I would have put mine on Da Bears!!!! woulda lost, so maybe its a good thing I didnt blow any money on the game.
well, its about time for me to get to bed. so good night to all and stay tuned for more about me...
Saturday, February 3, 2007
another saturday night
I feared...
until I learned to like
myself.
I feared failure
until I realized that I only
fail when I don't try.
I feared success
until I realized
that I had to try
in order to be happy
with myself.
I feared people's opinions
until I learned that
people would have opinions
about me anyway.
I feared rejection
until I learned to
have faith in myself.
I feared pain
until I learned that
it's necessary
for growth.
I feared the truth
until I saw the
ugliness in lies.
I feared life
until I experienced
its beauty.
I feared death
until I realized that it's
not an end, but a beginning.
I feared my destiny,
until I realized that
I had the power to change
my life.
I feared hate
until I saw that it
was nothing more than
ignorance.
I feared love
until it touched my heart,
making the darkness fade
into endless sunny days.
I feared ridicule
until I learned how
to laugh at myself.
I feared growing old
until I realized that
I gained wisdom every day.
I feared the future
until I realized that
life just kept getting
better.
I feared the past
until I realized that
it could no longer hurt me.
I feared the dark
until I saw the beauty
of the starlight.
I feared the light
until I learned that the
truth would give me
strength.
I feared change,
until I saw that
even the most beautiful butterfly
had to undergo a metamorphosis
before it could fly.
sorry if i ever left a hole.
There once was a little boy who had a bad
temper. His Father gave him a bag of nails
and told him that every time he lost his
temper, he must hammer a nail into the back
of the fence. The first day the boy had
driven 37 nails into the fence. Over the next
few weeks, as he learned to control his
anger, the number of nails hammered daily
gradually dwindled down. He discovered
it was easier to hold his temper than to
drive those nails into the fence.
Finally the day came when the boy didn't
lose his temper at all. He told his father
about it and the father suggested that the
boy now pull out one nail for each day that
he was able to hold his temper.
The days passed and the young boy was finally
able to tell his father that all the nails
were gone. The father took his son by the
hand and led him to the fence He said, "You
have done well, my son, but look at the
holes in the fence. The fence will never be
the same. When you say things in anger,
they leave a scar just like this one. You
can put a knife in a man and draw it out.
It won't matter how many times you say I'm
sorry, the wound is still there. " A verbal
wound is as bad as a physical one.
Friends are very rare jewels, indeed. They
make you smile and encourage you to succeed.
They lend an ear, they share words of praise
and they always want to open their hearts to us."
It's National Friendship Week. Show your
friends how much you care. Send this to
everyone you consider a FRIEND, even if
it means sending it back to the person who
sent it to you. If it comes back to you,
then you'll know you have a circle of friends.
YOU ARE MY FRIEND AND I AM HONORED!
Now send this to every friend you have!!
sorry if i ever left a hole.
Friday, February 2, 2007
What would you do...?
What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there? What would you do if for every moment you were truly happy there would be 10 moments of sadness? What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life. I look up to you, respect you, and truly cherish you. Send this to all your friends, no matter how often you talk, or how close you are, and send it to the person who sent it to you. Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them, and tell new friends you never will. Remember, everyone needs a friend, some don't ever leave the one u love for the one u like, because the one u like will leave u for the one they love.
As we grow up... love me for me
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back. I am me, this is me....love me for me!!!
Thursday, February 1, 2007
misery loves company
I just needed to get that out...
any suggestions???
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
checking in with my fans...
So as I mentioned before I am a student in college. So I am reporting progress on how my classes are going... and so far I dont have too much to really report but I do have 2 classes before I am able to accept my second degree. I am currently a Criminal Justice Major at Heald College being that I received my first degre from Heald College in Business Administration. My plans after this degree are yet to be determined... I am thinking that I want to go to a University to get my Bachelors degree... or just take up something in the Business Administration. So I can live like the guys in the movie "Office Space" and work at a job that I hate or work somewhere in the Criminal Justice field.
Any Suggestions??? or job offers HIT ME UP!!!
gratitude happens when you put your faith out there
I don't know if I mentioned it before, but a few weeks back, I was doing laundry and someone from the neighborhood decided to steal all of my clothes from the washer...
I was trying to get some money from my school loans, and put the word out with the faculty at my school and someone decided to donate some brand new shirts which I am very grateful for plus they were all brand new... tags on em and all yet I am still VERY GRATEFUL!!!
Monday, January 29, 2007
Redneck Man's pick up lines
1) Did you fart?
cuz you blew me away.
2) Are yer parents retarded?
cuz ya sure are special.
3) My Love fer you is like diarrhea.
I can't hold it in.
4) Do you have a library card?
cuz I'd like to sign you out.
5) Is there a mirror in yer pants?
cuz I can see myself in em.
6) If you was a tree and I were a Squirrel,
I'd store my nuts in yer hole.
7) You might not be the best lookin girl here,
but beauty's only a light switch away.
8) Man - "Fat Penguin!"
Woman - "WHAT?"
Man - "I just wanted to say something that would break the ice."
9) I know I'm not no Fred Flintstone,
but I bet I can make yer " bed-rock."
10) I can't find my puppy, can you help me find him?
I think he went inta this cheap motel room.
11) Yer eyes are as blue & pretty as window cleaner.
12) If yer gunna regret this in the mornin, we kin sleep til afternoon.
and.... the best for last!
13) Yer face reminds me of a wrench ...every time I
think of it my nuts tighten up.
STARBUCKS DENIES COFFEE TO MARINES
I got this alarming newsletter in an e-mail so I thought I might share it with you kind folks who choose to read this...
Recently Marines in Iraq wrote to Starbucks because they wanted to let them know how much they liked their coffees and
to request that they send some of it to the troops there.
Starbucks replied, telling the Marines thank you for their support of their business, but that Starbucks does not support the war, nor anyone in it, and that they would not send the troops their brand of coffee.
So as not to offend Starbucks, maybe we should not support them by buying any of their products! As a war vet writing
to fellow patriots, I feel we should get this out in the open.
I know this war might not be very popular with some folks, but that doesn't mean we don't support the boys on the ground fighting street-to-street and house-to-house for what they and I believe is right.
If you feel the same as I do then pass this along, or you can discard it and no one will never know. Thanks very much
for your support. I know you'll all be there again when I deploy once more.
"Semper Fidelis."
Sgt Howard C. Wright
1st Force Recon Co
1st Plt PLT
back to school
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
Ya Know How I Know...
Monday, January 22, 2007
You will always live on in our hearts
My mom has told me stories of them hitchhiking up and down the California coast, when they were younger (HIPPIES). As weird as it sounds, my mom was the ONLY sibling of hers to be assigned to go through his apartment looking for all of the legal statememnts, recurring bills and possible life insurance (and I helped). So yesterday weas a family (my mom, my sister, myself and her boyfriend and his sister)put together a memorial for his memory. It was in a secluded spot that is now a special place where his loving memories will live on forever.